Who Am I
If someone asks me who is the hardest person in the world that can be read through or be 100 percent known by myself in this world, I will say “The man must be myself.” Although we experienced every second in our life, it is really hard to truly know “who I am.” After several-day–long thinking about myself, the word jumps into my mind which can describe myself perfectly is benevolent. I am helpful, considerate and warm-hearted.
I am a helpful person. I am willing to help others and at the same time I am competent to do so. Good feelings always come to me when I see others be helped out owing to me. In another word, I can not stand my friends are in trouble or suffering around me. I will feel sad when my friends are sad. I would rather share others’ pain instead of leaving them alone. I still remember the lonely and cold night when my good friend told me his suffering from homesickness. I was companying with him, to listen his words, to comfort him as much as I can. Because I can not only understood his feelings but also truly feel his feelings. Afterwards, he told me my words had helped him out of the sadness. Actually, giving one a hand is more like a natural reaction from bottom of my heart than trying to be a friendly and nice person without the great passion for helping others. What is more, I have the abilities to help. I will not say I am talented, because in deed I am not that good. But at least I am doing well in some fields. According to the result of Gallup Strengthsfinder we took for LST class, my top strength is empathy. I can sense the emotions of those around me, even some slight details which are hard to be noticed. People will hide their feelings when facing difficulties. So we need to sense those depression and sadness actively instead of waiting for their confiding in you. In addition to emotional part, I can also do well in academic fields. I will be math tutor on campus next semester. It is my honor to have the chance to help others deal with confusing academic problems.
“Considerate” is the word my friends use to describe me, which is also the one I am pursuing for. It is not only because I always help them out timely, it also results from the proper ways I used. Apparently, helping others in an improper way will make them more uncomfortable or awkward. Think for others. Care others’ feelings. To be cared, I should care others first. This is kind of embodied benevolence. I always keep a packet of napkins in my backpack in case those around me will suddenly need napkins urgently for some reasons. And I will hold the door open for the one right after me. These are all details, not some grand things. But it does not mean it worth nothing. Life consists of exactly tiny details in our everyday life. And it is the detail which can really show one’s personalities. My innermost will be touched when I feel my friends’ subtle kindness to me and I am glad to deliver this positive feeling to others. I think this is the reason why being considerate is a part of my pursuit.
In addition to “considerate,” “enthusiastic” is another aspect of my benevolence. I once heard a story like that: when a really successful figure was recalling his memory of life, he said the man who moved him most was a stranger. He even did not know the stranger’s name, let alone his own life stories. But one thing the successful man could not forget forever is his smile, his enthusiastic and impressing smile. Because this was the only smile he got in his hardest time, a smile from a stranger. I was so shocked the moment I heard this story, to the power of a stranger’s love. I believe that was the day when the word “enthusiastic” came to my life. I would like to brightly smile to the ones passing by me, waving my hands, even to those I never met before. I prefer to say “How are you?” to the people around me. For me, it is not only the courtesy; it is more like my care about others. Although I feel bad when they just ignore my greeting, I will keep doing so. Because it has been already set in my soul, it is a part of me.
